not all who wander are lost

...the logical and rational mind keeps thinking... 

"i'm going to have enough money upon departure of kansas to simply go straight to Oregon and get a place to live there and find a job right away...i should probably do that while i have that money"

but that is also coming from the fear-based mind.  from the thought construct and belief system that assumes that "lack" exists.  that if i spend this money traveling, no more will flow to me. 

this desire to move and nest and settle is dressed in the clothing of convention, predictability, the need for a nice comfortable saftey net.

..but the heart...........



the heart wants not to be placed in a box. 

the heart wants the eyes to drink upon the colours of the forests of many places.

the heart wants the feet to steep in the streams of many mountains.

the heart wants to spread the love of the spirit to many more hearts.



...the heart desires for this being it is of to wander for a bit.  maybe a couple months. maybe a year.  if i knew the ending what would be the point in living the story?  ...so i'm going to wander.  with no bills to pay.  no job to go to.  with a backpack and a suitcase and an open and loving heart.  ..i'll have enough money to buy food for a while, but i might just try to make money along the way selling drawings and poems and collages (art supplies in backpack).  i'll have my tibetan singing bowls and some sage with me so maybe i'll do some healings along the way.  ... camp in various forests and mountains.  maybe check out the Rainbow Gathering in Wyoming this summer.  ...i'm going to do what i can to eat all raw along the way, so i won't have to take any camp cooking stuff.  just re-stock fresh and dried fruits and nuts in each town/city, get greens and veggies whenever i can.  hit up some vipassana retreats (http://www.dhamma.org) in the northwest and in california, ..maybe the one outside chicago too, i dunno, i'm just really feeling the upper left quadrant of the country. that and northern arizona... mmmm hmmmm...


but now...  i gotta go wait some tables...